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“I let envy push me into a decision I regret.”
Envy is borrowed desire, wanting something that belongs to someone else's path, not yours. When it drives decisions, the result is almost always a poor fit. This is the cost of stepping outside your own lane.
Your Practice
Write down what you were actually envying, beneath the surface. Was it status, freedom, ease? Then ask: is that something I genuinely want for my own life, or was it just contrast? Use that answer to make the next decision from your own values instead.
The Architects
“Man is fond of reckoning up his troubles, but does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it.”
Fyodor Dostoevsky, Notes from Underground, Part II, Chapter VI (the narrator to Liza), Constance Garnett translation