VIR-I-0040
“I keep lying to everyone about how much I actually drink.”
The numbers you give are always lower than the truth. You've lied to your partner, your doctor, and most of all yourself, and each lie makes the next one easier and the problem more invisible. The drinking is one thing. The lying is what keeps you from ever facing it. The first honest sentence about the real amount is where any way out begins.
Your Practice
- Write down the true amount. Not the version you tell people, the real one.
- Say it out loud to one person who's safe. The secret loses power when spoken.
- Stop downplaying it to your doctor. They can't help the lie, only the truth.
- Notice that honesty about the amount is step one, not the whole climb. Then take step two.
The Architects
“If any man is able to convince me and show me that I do not think or act right, I will gladly change; for I seek the truth, by which no man was ever injured.”
Marcus Aurelius, Meditations, Book VI.21 (George Long translation)